Tuesday, September 15, 2015
I keep change in a mason jar by my bed,
because it is inevitable
& if it is going to happen
I might as well embrace it, like a long lost friend
not the one that keeps coming around
after stealing your lover,
which is fucked up,
cause you still smell them on your pillow,
but try to picture them & all you get is that friend's face,
going down on them,
wash your sheets all you want,
it's not going away & one night stands
are momentary placebo pills
Every day I find pennies in parking lots,
cast off as worthless, in mud puddles & those slick spots
where oil drips on the way to overheating
We don't like small change.
Pretend it doesn't mean much. Don't want the weight
in our pockets, to throw off our walk
& there are so few wishing wells.
in my jar all the same & build up, to big change,
over time. My father once filled one of those plastic water jugs
people lean on at work and it was almost a thousand dollars.
I learned the value of common sense,
of saving what no one else wants.
I found a buck - fifty in dimes & quarters
on the asphalt
"Didn't you see this?"
I said to a group of younger strangers, twenty feet in front
We don't like change. Perhaps that is why we capture moments
in digital grandness, so we can remember what it was like
before, but every time we look at them
it is evident -
Your hair was longer then, had more curl,
our bodies were sun kissed, moon kissed, dusk & dawn kissed,
and everything in between // before autumn came
like a wind you can't see but pushes
There were rocks we sat on,
so big & unmoving, and the trees still had leaves
that were not leaving
I like to lay on the roof of the building
because the stars are ever moving & every once in a while
they wink out - I don't want to miss them,
I don't want to miss anything,
but I do,
it's a ritual,
each night I put my shoes away,
take my belt off & empty my pockets.
I put my daily change in the jar,
listen to the music of it falling into community
with all that came before it
before the lights go out
& I crawl into bed,
my head sinking deep
into the pillow.